Emotions are boiling in the Brown family.
In this week’s episode of sister wivesKody, Christine, Meri, Janelle and Robyn sat down one last time where they had a brutally honest conversation about their relationships with each other and family.
“Looking at my relationship and Kody’s a year ago, I really felt like I couldn’t stay, but I hadn’t decided to move yet,” Christine told the group. “I looked at our relationship, and as I was doing, I came to the conclusion that it’s not a relationship I would wish on any boyfriend of mine.”
Kody, 53, who has made his anger transparent at Christine’s decision to leave, fired back with his own take on the situation.
“I remember that. You were interested in family, not in man. That was your mantra,” Kody told Christine. “But it was about the man and not the family. And that’s, I think, my angry place. That’s why I struggle with it, because we’ve invested and invested and invested and it wasn’t about the family, it was about the man. And that’s my frustration and also my reproach.”
He continued: “I’m furious that you weren’t willing to invest in the family, but you were only interested in what I could do for you – me as a resource for you. And it breaks my heart because it’s us now at this point where it’s just over and done.”
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Last November, Christine announced on Instagram that her spiritual marriage to Kody was over. In September 2021, she moved to Salt Lake City, Utah, and still lives there with daughter Truely, 12. (The exes are also parents to son Paedon, 24, and daughters Aspyn, 27, Mykelti, 26, Gwendlyn, 20, and Ysabel, 19. Kody has 18 children total between the wives.)
“Thank you for ripping the band-aid off so quickly because it would never work if it all had to be about me, like you always said it wasn’t,” Kody said.
Robyn, who has expressed her sadness at Christine’s departure, fought back tears during the discussion.
“That is embarrassing. They get their relationship straight in front of us, but when they talk, I believe there’s always a chance for a miracle,” she said during a confessional. “People are about to get divorced and then they keep changing their minds. She might say she got divorced, but in my mind she technically isn’t, so I’m just like, ‘Well, maybe they can work that out.'”
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At one point, Kody lost his temper and yelled at Christine, “Man, that knife in my kidneys for all these years! The sacrifices I made to love you. Wasted!”
He later explained his outburst in a confessional.
“I feel like I screwed up with her for the last 14 years,” he said. “I’m just trying to be a loving husband and now that she’s leaving I just felt like giving her a bit of my opinion with that departure. That’s not my fault. You did this, that’s how I feel. I don’t care if that’s not fair. That’s how I feel. She did that.”
Although Christine admitted her decision was difficult, she knew it was the right decision.
“I think this is one of the saddest conversations I’ve ever been a part of,” she said. “But I don’t regret leaving at all.”
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sister wives airs Sundays at 10 p.m. ET on TLC.